Yeah, I'm feeling that lazy today.

So, I'm not even sure how to begin this update. There aren't a whole lot of new things going on in my life. VD came and went with barely even a 'blah.' I managed to get in an extra trip, which was nice, but there were a LOT of smitten teens on the buses that afternoon. Occasionally I envy them a bit: I never got to have that stage. I was always so very awkward, all the way though High School, I never got into some of the MASSIVE flirting that was always going on. I was eighteen before I really became HALFWAY comfortable talking to girls, and I still haven't quite gotten there yet. My last two relationships have set me back a bit, too. Marrying someone completely wrong for you, and then DATING someone EXACTLY like her years after the marriage ended... Well, that's got me questioning my judgment and taste in women a great deal. Needless to say, this has hampered my ability to flirt to the extent that MOST people my age do.

Yesterday, I was talking with one of the students on the bus, and it got around to the topic of what to look for in a future wife.

Him: 'You need to marry someone that, every time you see them in a bikini...'

Me (Cutting him off): 'Nah, what good will THAT do you in sixty years?!?'

Him: 'That's true.'

Me: 'I want someone whom I know I can talk to and enjoy my time with, even after the looks all fade.'

Him (His words exactly): 'You could always talk about her ass.'

Somehow, I get the feeling that wouldn't go over too well after a couple of kids and sixty years: 'Remember when your ass used to look good in a bikini?' I'd be on the couch for the rest of my life. Faced that threat once, not wanting to face it again.

In more recent, fun, and random news, I've finally joined the 21st century and gotten a webcam. Anyone interested in a video chat? I want to get some good usage out of it now that I've got it...

So yeah, yesterday morning, I woke up for work and found out that the internet connection was gone. Just like that, POOF! Fortunately for me, it appears to have just been an issue with the server - they'd been having outages in the area. I'm incredibly glad for that, because while I can check facebook and Hulu from the driver's lounge at work, Xanga is completely inaccessible and I just don't feel comfortable doing online banking from a public computer.

I just got home from a screening of 'The Artist,' and it was one of the sweetest, most charming films I've seen in a LONG time! Highly recommended, in spite of the fact that it IS black and white and silent all over. The only disappointment was that I put a very public invite up on facebook a good three and a half hours beforehand, and STILL no one showed up.

This is a recurring thing for me, no matter HOW much notice I give. If I plan something, it's almost a guarantee that I'll be at it alone - unless Ian is around, that is. He seems to be the only person who WANTS to spend time with me, which is something I do not understand. In person I'm a pleasant, fun person to spend time around - unlike on here, which is where I do all my moping. And I would LOVE to make new friends, but I'm getting to an age where I'm just not sure HOW to do it anymore.

Any suggestions?